Hey All,
First off, I really need to thank those of you who took the time to read my first post. I received so many kind messages, phone calls, and hugs after putting it up and your support is a very real and tangible blessing in my life! I have had such an awesome time sharing with people what God is doing in my life and there are a few things I want to be clear on.
"Hallelujah, we are free to struggle
We're not struggling to be free
Your blood bought and makes us children,
Children, drop your chains and sing"
I'm sure that from a quick glance, it would be easy to assume that I'm a "good" person, I must spend all of my time in my Bible, or that I've dreamed of Seminary my whole life and have whole-heartedly chased after God's calling for my life every step of the way. I'll make this easy; none of the above are true.
I certainly struggle. I struggle with sin, guilt, the lies of the enemy he tries to speak over my life, and trying to discern what in my life is the Lord's plan versus a temptation from the world, and the list can go on. I spent the majority of my first year in college out of Church, out of Bible study, and out of the Word. I've struggled with low self-esteem, relationships that weren't Christ-centered, getting my priorities out of order, making bad decisions, and had to run back to the Cross to find redemption and healing. In no way am I a better person or a better Christian because of a six month trip, being a chaplain, or going to Seminary. None of these works or actions can save me. Only our Savior in His incredible grace can save my from my sin and call me to be used for His glory. It's a calling I don't (and won't ever) deserve, but that's the beauty of it. God can call us all to be used to further His kingdom, no matter what our struggles are.
In all honesty, the things I've been called to do can be really intimidating a huge way. Surely there are people who have studied the Word in more depth, surely there are people with gifts of evangelism and spreading the Gospel with people they don't know, and I'm sure that plenty of people could be better servants or mission workers than I. Right? Wrong, and here's the beauty of my story. And all of our stories, really. We don't need to let comparison steal our joy or our certainty. The only assurance needed is that we are called to serve, God will take care of the rest.
I am currently sitting at around $1300 in my missions account. First off, AMEN. That is a lot of heartfelt money that's been given by people from all walks of life and it humbles me every time I look at the bottom line. I'll need to have that up to $2000 in 94 days, I am believing in faith that the money will be there! If you feel lead to give, below is the link. My User ID is CMOR1002. By all means, please give if you feel lead and are able. I am also interested in what I'm calling "real support," which is people who will pray for me and my team members, encourage us along the way, and be supportive of us in our time of preparation. That will mean more to me than any dollar amount, so thank you all for your support and love.
"We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure." Hebrews 6:19
http://www.experiencemission.org/Display.asp?Page=donatelanding
